A little post.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
12:52 PM
Was kinda getting more and more busy in life.
Need to work and keep upgrading myself in this competitive world.
But no matter how tired. I think i need to finish this blog once again for my girl.
Life is full of problems. Begin hurts, begin unfair, begin phobia of.
I face it every single bits of that. and i believe everyone's in the earth have been facing it too.
In the pass. When i always got to these kind of problems. I'll fight it hard to get what i should get.
After so many of experience, lecturing and teaching.
I'd finally got into a conclusion.
The amount of energy wasted is 100folds what i had gain.
Why not i just sit down and think of some other better and positive way to walk things out instead keep on stacking in the situation that had already bring me loses.
Is pride matter really that important for me? I don't think so.
Yea, people may remember me in that sec. But all those will be noted as a pass.
Recently keep got into sickness.
Is getting weak in body and stronger in emotional and spirit. Whhoooops.!
It's a great exchange.!
Always pray that my beloved baby will get to know God one day.
Cause i know, if only she got to know God. All the stupid fears and stuff will leave her forever.!
And only God is the one that have the power to build her up into a stage that she will no longer worry,fear and stuff.
Never know bringing someone to the truth is so hard and tough job. But I'll never give up loving her like what God has done in my life.
I'm sorry for stressing you sometimes. Sorry.!!
I'm in the wrong for getting worry of you that you might forever stay in this comfort zone.
Cause i know, If i started to worry. Means I'm doubting God's work on you. And i shall pray and keep on loving you. :)
It's all by God's work to brought a person to Christ but not by man made.
SORRY. :P
Pass is already stated as a pass.
Once i got ready to accept this relationship started.
I'd already told myself that I'll put in my best afford to build this wonderful relationship.
Doubting me at times is right. Cause we're just a human.
We need assurance. And i promise. I'll always give you the best assure.:D
I'm sorry if i had make you upset at times. forgive me.
I don't mean it.
My baby girl, I'll always be there helping you to walk through every problems you encountered.
Will not look down on you. Will never. Cause I'm already the most down person. Will only look up to you.:D
In future, I'm really glad and please that you'll still share your problems with me and seeking me for helps. at least i feel that i had done something la... LOL
After all those thinking of mine. I really thank God. Thank God for building me up 3years ago for my endurance and every wise decision we've done and made.
Was wondering. If i never get to know him. Today my cute cry babygirl would suffered from cried to death. LOLS.
Iloveyou. Always, It's true.
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A little post.
12:52 PM
Was kinda getting more and more busy in life.
Need to work and keep upgrading myself in this competitive world.
But no matter how tired. I think i need to finish this blog once again for my girl.
Life is full of problems. Begin hurts, begin unfair, begin phobia of.
I face it every single bits of that. and i believe everyone's in the earth have been facing it too.
In the pass. When i always got to these kind of problems. I'll fight it hard to get what i should get.
After so many of experience, lecturing and teaching.
I'd finally got into a conclusion.
The amount of energy wasted is 100folds what i had gain.
Why not i just sit down and think of some other better and positive way to walk things out instead keep on stacking in the situation that had already bring me loses.
Is pride matter really that important for me? I don't think so.
Yea, people may remember me in that sec. But all those will be noted as a pass.
Recently keep got into sickness.
Is getting weak in body and stronger in emotional and spirit. Whhoooops.!
It's a great exchange.!
Always pray that my beloved baby will get to know God one day.
Cause i know, if only she got to know God. All the stupid fears and stuff will leave her forever.!
And only God is the one that have the power to build her up into a stage that she will no longer worry,fear and stuff.
Never know bringing someone to the truth is so hard and tough job. But I'll never give up loving her like what God has done in my life.
I'm sorry for stressing you sometimes. Sorry.!!
I'm in the wrong for getting worry of you that you might forever stay in this comfort zone.
Cause i know, If i started to worry. Means I'm doubting God's work on you. And i shall pray and keep on loving you. :)
It's all by God's work to brought a person to Christ but not by man made.
SORRY. :P
Pass is already stated as a pass.
Once i got ready to accept this relationship started.
I'd already told myself that I'll put in my best afford to build this wonderful relationship.
Doubting me at times is right. Cause we're just a human.
We need assurance. And i promise. I'll always give you the best assure.:D
I'm sorry if i had make you upset at times. forgive me.
I don't mean it.
My baby girl, I'll always be there helping you to walk through every problems you encountered.
Will not look down on you. Will never. Cause I'm already the most down person. Will only look up to you.:D
In future, I'm really glad and please that you'll still share your problems with me and seeking me for helps. at least i feel that i had done something la... LOL
After all those thinking of mine. I really thank God. Thank God for building me up 3years ago for my endurance and every wise decision we've done and made.
Was wondering. If i never get to know him. Today my cute cry babygirl would suffered from cried to death. LOLS.
Iloveyou. Always, It's true.
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A little post.
12:52 PM
Was kinda getting more and more busy in life.
Need to work and keep upgrading myself in this competitive world.
But no matter how tired. I think i need to finish this blog once again for my girl.
Life is full of problems. Begin hurts, begin unfair, begin phobia of.
I face it every single bits of that. and i believe everyone's in the earth have been facing it too.
In the pass. When i always got to these kind of problems. I'll fight it hard to get what i should get.
After so many of experience, lecturing and teaching.
I'd finally got into a conclusion.
The amount of energy wasted is 100folds what i had gain.
Why not i just sit down and think of some other better and positive way to walk things out instead keep on stacking in the situation that had already bring me loses.
Is pride matter really that important for me? I don't think so.
Yea, people may remember me in that sec. But all those will be noted as a pass.
Recently keep got into sickness.
Is getting weak in body and stronger in emotional and spirit. Whhoooops.!
It's a great exchange.!
Always pray that my beloved baby will get to know God one day.
Cause i know, if only she got to know God. All the stupid fears and stuff will leave her forever.!
And only God is the one that have the power to build her up into a stage that she will no longer worry,fear and stuff.
Never know bringing someone to the truth is so hard and tough job. But I'll never give up loving her like what God has done in my life.
I'm sorry for stressing you sometimes. Sorry.!!
I'm in the wrong for getting worry of you that you might forever stay in this comfort zone.
Cause i know, If i started to worry. Means I'm doubting God's work on you. And i shall pray and keep on loving you. :)
It's all by God's work to brought a person to Christ but not by man made.
SORRY. :P
Pass is already stated as a pass.
Once i got ready to accept this relationship started.
I'd already told myself that I'll put in my best afford to build this wonderful relationship.
Doubting me at times is right. Cause we're just a human.
We need assurance. And i promise. I'll always give you the best assure.:D
I'm sorry if i had make you upset at times. forgive me.
I don't mean it.
My baby girl, I'll always be there helping you to walk through every problems you encountered.
Will not look down on you. Will never. Cause I'm already the most down person. Will only look up to you.:D
In future, I'm really glad and please that you'll still share your problems with me and seeking me for helps. at least i feel that i had done something la... LOL
After all those thinking of mine. I really thank God. Thank God for building me up 3years ago for my endurance and every wise decision we've done and made.
Was wondering. If i never get to know him. Today my cute cry babygirl would suffered from cried to death. LOLS.
Iloveyou. Always, It's true.
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A little post.
First and Last post for you.
Friday, November 5, 2010
2:24 PM
Ok
Today was her birthday.
Done all I can for her.:) (who knows?)
Agree, Some people may be saying I'm stupid now.
But did You ever know the love for You?
Just notice why I'm always stack in this problem.
Because I keep on thinking that i had not done enough.
Till today. I'm very clear what I had done to you.
I did't own you anything, Did't ever.
In my mind. You're always that good.
Till today, I notice.
Actually I'm not that important to you even as a friend.
What i did, I always think for you. What about you?!! Treating me as a shit?!
Seriously.
Don't because just a fucking guy ever hurt You means You can judge the whole entire guy that will do the same thing to You.
If this is your thinking.
I'm damn pity for you.
Because you really don't know what is love till now.
The feeling towards you is utterly disappointed.
Maybe what You done to me can help you in Your distress.
But do you think it's fair?!
Fling around izzit that cool for You?
Did't You have the sense of guilt?
Can't imagine You can tell me I love you when Your heart is still thinking others.
Do I look like the person?!
Seriously, After so many things happen.
Your vision in my eyes is getting more and more blur.
Till now, I really admit.
I did't know You well before.
Maybe to You. Relationship is just ever a joke for You.
You're seeking more hurts then love.
You make me feel that you are never ever been love before.
And yet, I'm trying all i can to fill your empty heart.
But you?! You're just using me as a healing fountain to get into better part of Your life.
Maybe all the while I was too naive that you'll return one day.
All the while before i do any decision i will think izzit best for you in your life.
But what about you? You keep hang me in the middle of the sky.
Just like a kite without the string did you notice?
And yea.
Everything is my wrong.
1st.I'm in the wrong to fought with someone you like.
2nd.I'm in the wrong to get some food and send over to your place.
3rd.I'm in the wrong for caring you that much.
4th.I'm in the wrong for worrying you.
5th.I'm in the wrong for messaging you.
6th.I'm in the wrong for knowing your good sister.
7th.I'm in the wrong for missing you.
8th.I'm in the wrong for doing something for you.
9th.I'm in the wrong for irritating you.
10th.I'm in the wrong for paranoid over you.
11th.I'm in the wrong for wanting to meet you.
12th.I'm in the wrong for pressuring you.
13th.I'm in the wrong for sweet talking to you.
14th.I'm in the wrong for wanting to meet you.
15th.I'm in the wrong for meeting you.
16th.I'm in the wrong for saying you.
17th.I'm in the wrong for commenting in your facebook.
18th.I'm in the wrong for saying your friends.
19th.I'm in the wrong for sharing my feelings with you.
20th.I'm in the wrong for concerning you.
21st.I'm in the wrong for defensing for you.
Did You ever think why I'll do all those thing?!
If all this thing make You so unhappy in your life, What for i stay?
Seriously, I found no value in you're life now.:)
I buy something to surprise someone hoping that she may have a blessed meal without walking to buy.
What i got?
A call from another guy.
Asking me what the fuck i want now?
I asked him. Do you have any problem?
Then she say I finding her friend fault.:) (Y)
At the point seriously I really don't understand what is love anymore.:)
Teach me. how to reply her friend?!
Saying, No eh brother. I'm very sad ma. Trying to win her heart. Worry she hungry?
Cannot be? He's someone i don't even know?!
First place.
Where He got my number.?
Sad enough to guess the answer?
Peeps that know me well enough know I won't get into problems for no reason.
That time I was just thinking. Right here I'm trying to be a Good person.
Yet there are always this kind of test.
God.
Seriously, You know I'll always fail this test. Don't test me with this will you?!
OK, never mind.
After everyone had scold me that I'm stupid enough.
I even scold them.
Maybe this is when everyone saying me stubborn enough.
I did't care. Just want to love you.
But afterall what did i get?!!
scolding from peeps.
I messaging you. trying to make you happy.
And my outcome is irritating?!!
I even said sorry to make things clear.
But all i got is what?!
I try all ways trying to know how are you doing.
End up?!!
you're thinking I'm honging your good friend?!
Izzit fair to your friend and me seriously?!
And you kick me like a soccer ball to your friend?
I'm upset. And showing everyone attitude. Who care?
Who the love that got hurt?
My family. Those who love me.?!!
what is those craps I'm doing? For who?
Me myself?!
A very Sorry to those who are trying to pull me up in my life.:)
Disappointed in me that time right?:P
When I'm most down.
Who're there??!!
What are you doing?
What are you thinking?
I'm knocking at your heart asking you for a return.
What you told me?
what you told others?:)
What's your aspect of love?
Izzit this way?!
I've been trying hard to maintain a friendship for you and me.
But what are you treating me as?
Pieces of shit?
Even try ask everyone how to hold this friendship back.
Even research on google's.
People that seeing this post may be laughing at me saying I'm stupid or whatever fuck.
Or seeing it lame.
Please fuck off from my life if You guys want to take this post as a joke._|_
Till today.
I used all my saving to get something for you unconditionally.
What are you thinking again?
Flings?!:)
I'm awake from this now. If all i did make you treat me this way.
Serve me right then.
If all i ever did for you is just to get all this back from you then a friend.
Then I'll tell you.
I'm in the wrong for loving you.
I'm in the wrong for knowing you.
I'm in the wrong for doing all this for you.
Bryan's Lim
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Thursday, October 14, 2010
12:18 PM
Ok, It's been freaking long since my last blog.:)
Ermmmm.
recently was kinda upset for alot of things.
but now was not so.(hopefully)
Pass few days i was busy packing my emotional stuff.
Party party party party,
Drinking drinking drinking drinking.
Actually guys. I don't really like to drink as most of my close friend know..
But seriously, this few days i really learn alot of things.
Knowing we can't really say things too early.
It's a biggest mistake in my life..
In my most down time. I wanted to find someone to cry out.
But some friend was not the one i wanted..
really thanks a good brother of mine.XIONGYUN!.
He really did alot things for me. Helping me to stand up again.
Although i am not really happy with who am i now.
But no choice, life still need to move. days still need to pass.
The saddest things i think is that went i face someone i love most.:((
and yet my parent is in oversea..
I notice something on. Always went my parent is in oversea.
problems will come into my life.
Is just like a nightmare.
Ok, Where should i start my story.?
Ermmmmmmm.
Ok, i attended my good friend birthday.
i knew someone important i my life.
before i carry on. I need to admit I was just a flirter before that.:)
Maybe is just karma. Just kidding.! i don't believe in this shit.
So i knew someone and she's a really nice person.
Guys. do you believe in first slight?! Now i believe it.:)
After knowing a girl. My whole life just change this way.
Seriously never regret knowing her.
Whatever need to come. it will come one day.:)
All the times we were together i believe is my most happiest moment with someone on earth..
You know in my life there's only a girl i fall for this feeling.?!
But slowly things goes wrong for no reason.
Skip this part.:P
After that i really experience a second of emotional change.
On oct 1, 5pm i departed from the last prettiest side of her.
On the same date. at 6pm. I feel my whole life like shit.
Guess how power she can ever impact my life..
HMmmmmMs,
Ok, now.
Lets talk about my birthday.
Was celebrated at ginza sunday Oct 10.
Thanks to Mingshien(kor),Sharon(ah SOoo),XiongYun,Weikang,Chinyi.
Seriously i got a quite upset birthday yea.
Was full of angle.
Thinking, i did so much in my pass 20's this is what i got.
Hahas. but who cares! It's alright.
At least i got my close brothers with me.:)
Was kinda enjoy.
And on my actual birthday i seriously spend the whole day at home using comp.
But really thanks to someone. Suddenly a person called.
And she wanted to cook something for my birthday.
I was like. ohhh ok!!
so we went to get some ingredient and start to mess up my house.(went i'm a person that seldom clean my place.)
So i called my brother and tell him I'm cooking for him. Guess what he reply.-.-
*you cook uh? then i think i go buy better.*
LOLS.
So after all i had a simple and easy birthday spend with her.
And i'll remember.
Squeezing pimples is freaking pain!
Thanks to rena Ong.:)
But I'm sorry. my heart is still thinking of someone even though you try to cheers me up.
She's all i want went my birthday.
But she did't turn up.:)
Ok.Skip!
Yesterday! Powerhouse! Whoops.!
Is my last fever night i guess from now.
Was dancing all the way podium.:)
suddenly just a girl came and ask to lend light stick.
And she's freaking good at it!
Had a great day tecktonik-ing!
Suddenly i fall in love with dancing can..
Hahas. so after that home sweet home.
And now. finally my dad and mum is back from hongkong and china!:)
They brought me a pair of shoe, a wallet and 2 shirts.:D
thanks!<3
Ok, should close if with a nice story i saw.
I when to lucky plaza to meet my friend.
Which is his shop.
Their customer service is the worst i ever saw.
Look on how they talk to customer.:)
1st:
Customer walk in.
Shop owner: ehhh!! oi, oi lan pa. look here la.
Customer: Ermm, hello. may i know how much is I phone 4 32gb?
Shop owner: Errrrr, $900!!
Customer: Wow, is expensive.
Shop owner: ehhh! you got sleep or never sleep?!! 900 expensive?! then you go 7-11 buy. there very cheap.
Customer walk away..
Come in after 10mins...
And ask the same question on another staff.
Staff : i though my friend tell you the price already?! you ask him again la.
Shop owner: eh! lan pa. this is your 3rd time asking already..
Customer: but but the other shop selling 700!
Shop owner: You know what? the one must suck one time you know?! you want suck ar.?
Customer: No comment.
Shop owner: Then why they sell 700 you don't buy?!
Customer: No comment.
Shop owner: then you lanpa already la( pointing middle finger)
Customer just walk away.
There's alot story more. but it's late now. gonna sleep.
hope you enjoy reading.!<3
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Thursday, May 20, 2010
10:03 AM
lols ...
this few days was great .
but i feel abit weired of me .
cause my shopping spree was on non stop .
i suddenly treasure my life so much .
i just wanna live in a feel free life .
nothing to worry , nothing to troubled .
cause i feel that trouble is a day , happy is a day .
so what the benefit or worrying and sad everyday ?
recently , i spend alot money in cloths .
i brought two pants , one jeans , one shirt , one belt and a shoe ..
full set yea ?
i feel that there is a word quite true .
went we was young , we act as a man .
but went we are old , we act young .
LOLS
alot alot of things happen ..
but all is happy moments ..:D
ok , just share some big news .
On 1st may , i got into a bike accident at SLE mandai .
was at power house with caleb , jeffery , junjia , weijian , weixiang .
was kind of fun .
due to i was going to NS .
so the feeling of me is like ..
i want to play !
but did't notice ..i get into a bike accident after st.james power house .
was kind of lost memory after the clash .
just remember went i woke up .
i saw a lady fanning me asking
"boi boi , are you ok ?"
"just rest here , the ambulance in reaching"
guess what .
i straight away stand up and walk to caleb's and tell him lets talk cab home .
LOL .
was kind of lost already .
thinking nothing much happen to me .
just know that went the accident happen .
i was like forget everything .
is a nightmare for me i guess .
all my heart is just thinking my family , God and friends .
i felt that the death gate is near to me on that moment .
but i really thank God ,i manage to survive for now .
think is really my extra time for now .
i can't believe we was like on a speed of 140/km per/h and got into a clash .
and now i still can be sitting here posting my blog .
even went i heard that the bike was scarab .
my heart is like thank God for his love .
can you imagine even metal is destroyed and my body doesn't .
so now ,
look what i got .
hahas .. cool ?
ok , followed up ,
2 days after .
i was suppose to go report for my enlistment which is on 3rd may .
guess what , i was asked to send home .
they told me i need to rest after the bike accident .
and i told them just give me 3 days time .
and even told them i was to be enlisted .
they insisted not to let me stay .
instead they gave me 3months time to rest and even drop my pes to pes "D"
what the hell .
i was hoping i can be maintain in pes "A"
but everything just change for what i planned .
and from there , i really learn something great .
i can't plan too much for my life .
cause i need to trust the one who panning all the way of my life .
and my plan is always not better then the one who plan for me .
so after sending me home .
i was like , man .
what should i do for this 3 months ?
am i suppose to really rest and rot for this 3 months without any income ?
if that's it , i think i will be suffered and will send to IMH .
LOLS .
So , i decided to reject all the pain .
and start running out here and there ..:D
so guess what i did after the next day ?
let's see .
cool ?
hahas .
one thing i'm happy .
i can celebrate brother b'dae with her .:D
can you imagine a pai ka went to kite flying ?
serious , i love kite flying alot .don't know why .
i think is my first time in the age of 20 .
was relax kind of relax .! :D
i hope one day i can go kite flying again ..
seeing my kite soring high in the sky make me feel good .
but too bad :(
can't share the photo with you guys .
cause i don't have any photo .
AND HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY XIAO'EN !!!
ok , move on .
next , sending my half mum to oversea .
and same date , yong qi's birhtday .
was kind of good even not too good .
i just love the moment spending with you .
i just wanted to treasure every min .
i just wanted to stay happy every sec .
i just wanted to control my emotion then getting control .
so , was kind of fun . but walk alot alot alot .
but , i likeeeee ~
was kind of miss my half mum uh .
but don't worry , i know she miss me .:D
hahs .
ok , sharing time .
hahas .
ok ,
many things happen .
on 9th may , me and family get to share testimony at FU MAN LOU singapore expo
hahas .sharing how God love's us .
and it's a mother day launch .:D
praise God .
after that went out with shaun and ash
was kind of enjoy .
we talk alot alot of stuff out .
and we went for a movie .
iron man 2 i guess .
was sleeping for half of the show .
guess i'm not sleeping .
cause i was so unlucky that i was place beside a person that have a very very bad "B.O"
man .
is like faint for half of the show i guess .
i never once in my life got into this before and it's my first time .
was kind of sian 1/2 .
was thinking , i got a clash and bang my head .
and now i'm sitting beside the person that have a bad "B.O"
izzit what this called use poison cure poison ?LOL
and recently i went shopping with shaun .
actually should not be us only .
but just suddenly ashely got into some moodswing then go back half way .
so me and shaun continue to walk around singapore .
but think all along he is like accompany me for shopping helping me carry stuff .-.-
i finally got to buy a belt at AX .which cost me 140 and yet i told my dad is only 70bucks ..
half price uh !..LOL
have a great day through .
i was accompanied by ashley and shaun for my leg appointment .
then went to clark quay .
then went to bugis .
then orhard .
a real tired day .
thanks shaun and ash .
just read my old cbox .
was kind of promise my nuer cunzhi posting about her .
recently i met her .
and get a chance to slack with her .
lols
but she still never change .-.-
only thing that i know she change is a bf .LOL
and recently i get to met a old friend .
"rena ong wu gui"
she accompanied me once for my leg treatment .
power ar .
and was slacking with her and my brother and sharon talking about dog's whole day .
i like dog !.:D
ok , and today was a real busy day .
asked for a morning call .2person .
but all failed .
LOL .
ask brother call me at 11.30am .she call me at 1.30pm
think she abit blur went i ask her to wake me up .
hahas .
went for leg treatment alone .
and eat .guess what .the soup spill on me .and it take me 30min to wash before eat .
and went to bugis for interview .
see izzit God's will anot .:D
and rush all the way back to woodlands to meet huiwen's
she was late .-.-
but nevermind .
i went cotton on myself to shop .LOL~!
and got a shirt for myself .
and now .became they are waiting for me .
went down cck with hongxiang's and huiwen's
was kind of lost .so we took a cab .
and there goes .
the house was mess up .
and the kitchen is full of smoke .
but overall .good job guys .
thanks for the food preparing .:D
went to eat and celebrate rina birthday .
the food was nice .cause it was cook with love .
was kind of enjoy overall .
get a good time to share with shaun about God under sw block .
can see he was touch .
was sharing about full healing and the power of cross .
thank God .God want us to share sometime/most of the time .
and after that while going home from mrt .
got a chance to share with rina and yong qi about practicing the love of God through us .
praise God , is a real blessed day .
ok .
gonna rest .
:D
believe on the truth , but don't believe on the facts .
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