boring + sad ???lols..
Friday, April 3, 2009
1:23 PM
yesterday sleep at 5plus again ..everyday same...:Pquite happy for my job ...:)and today ...i wake up at 4pm in the afternoon !!!Omg , slot of lazy pig i am ...wahahax..when for launch with my dad and pastor and pastor ma at yishun block 807...after that , they when for leader meeting ...and i.....when to park to have some walk alone ...was seeing some kid's play volleyball ...thinking of my past ...LOLenjoy without stressing ...never think about money problem ..just to play everyday ...easily entertained . :Dhow much i hope i will forever live in my young times ...but i know ...i cant ...time is not waiting for me too ...i better start thinking about my future ...ok , then after that , i when back home ...and they just end the meeting ...so , i prayed with them ...and when to Jabez house for Sunday worship practice ...awhile ...caleb came too ...was choosing what sound to lead on this coming sunday ..quite enjoy there ...then after that ...when for prayer meeting at night with them ...sing some songs and started praying for everyone even the world ...LOLwas kind of hungry on that time ...but ...who cares ...i can care for others ...but not myself ...LOLbut after prayer meeting ...we when to eat something at woodlands ...but its not really a nice dinner through .. was drifted one side ???LOLso when to find my friends for awhile near there ...thought may find something to de-bored myself ...so when over to find them ...half way ...i make someone angry for my act saying all had been waiting me to go home .. so , i faster say bye and go with them ...then i just wanted to ask caleb about something ...but end up making someone angry ..so , sorry for this ...misunderstood goes more and more ...don't understand what you all thinking bout ...care and concern shows nothing ...was quite emo at time thinking why should i do this and that ...think is satan jobs ...
Sorry for everything !!!!
but , no matter how people know me as ...i know God still love me ...and i don't give a damn in yours life ..!!think i putted a big wrong proity this time ...i shall not ask much from you guys ...sorry~~~~think i shall really wait my dear brother out ...maybe on that time ...there will really be a listener for me ....maybe they know me longer thats why ...what for begin a joker that don't make people laugh ???what for begin a listener to people don't talk ??what for begin a lover that they don't have love ???what for begin good when they don't feel good ?? wahahahahx...emotion , feeling and mood ...you really got me in deep shit now ...i hate it !!!are we all really from different world ??ya , we are darkness ...you are light ...we are bad ...you are good ...we had different childhood ..??we came from different family ???we came from different back ground ??we have different needs ??we had different topic ?we do different things ??we go different places ?stay different places ?is there really so many different from my life to you all ??ohhhh , if its really ...i think i should find groups that had the same background same childhood same dark same needs talk same topic do same things ba ...:DWahahahax ....God save me ...Sorry guys ..btw , today prayer meeting learn alot ...but kind of lazy and moody to post and my computer started to auto shut down again...so .....sorry ...:Dif got chance ...i will post more to update ...The most evil side of man is really scare ..They can do anything to make you down plus give up ...They can even ask you go do things that make you cant stand up and face people again ..They can we good when happy , bad when happy ..Sorry for my words today ...hope you will not put in your heart ..just want you takecare yourself well you and your body ...not giving up , but learning to be better ...i will be back when i reach what personality you wanted ...
if the day i can't reach ..i will not be claiming iloveyou ..
i really hope you may share with me your saddness whenever you needs ..cause i wantted to share the pain with you ..
share with me will you ?
wait for me will you ??Thanks for accompanying me message at late night ..Thanks for cheering me up ..Good luck ..God bless ..Takecares ..Thanks ..
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