DIsappointed , regret and happy ..
Thursday, April 30, 2009
7:19 AM
i did a morning post just now , and now i wanted to write my another half day of my days ..was playing dota for whole afternoon after school ..halfway , mother wake up ...and my brother came back from camp ..its been long time since i last saw him .i think its about a month since i last saw him ..i was so happy to see him , because he is a brother that always support me .and always listen to me ..so , we chit chat ...i love the feeling man ..:)ok , a bad thing happen today ..was trying to share with my mum about today morning case .but , when i started to share ...she just never listen and just say all my wrong ..:)so , really , its the first time i ever shout at her and telling her i am disappointed on this family ..and i was saying those words that make her disappointed too ...i almost lost ..i walk to the kitchen and look at downstair , and i really wanted to just jump down at the moment .i i just remember some sentence i am shouting .." You all like to help her help there , but will never help the family !!"" You all can help and change people , but will never can help the family "" You all go and love your that daughter lor , i am ok with it and i used to it "" Eh , i am not primary school la , did you ever think of my feeling anot "" Eh , i am ok without you all la , i am really disappointed in you all "" Eh , you all really make me going give up on christian la "i was abit regret that i say things really hurt her , because she is the most indecent person in the family ..I'am sorry , but i still need to say before things goes wrose ..Sorry mum .So , after that , i take my phone and ring my friend asking to go gym ..cause only when i am frocing myself on workout and keep running is the best way for me to distress ..so , i just pack my stuff and when out without a bye ..but i know deeply inside my hearts , i am worry for the hurt i put on her ..so i when home and tell my kor kor to look after my mum then i when out again ..when to gym for a stress excise ..was chatting about God and others religons ..me and weixiang brother was sharing gospel to weixiang and weiyan telling God love them .so happy that i got a tag team ..LoLs .and when to dinner with them and stuff ..Btw , the dinner was 57 bucks !!!Omg ..buy thanks to them , they settle for me ...>.<thanks for the treat !!!!and when home ...and now, i was at home ..!Labels: Sorry mum, what type of love you gave me is not the type of love i wanted .
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