Name:Bryan Lim Ming Kai
Born:111090
Email :bryan.kai@hotmail.com
Single
20 this year
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hmmm , today was quite not a good day at first .
once wakeup , some disappoint things happen .
so , i cry in the very first morning .

ok , then after that , when to wild wild wet with weixiang weiyan weikang weixiang brother and me ..ok , was kind of broke ..but, wei xiang just treated everyone ..thanks xiang .
btw , i think he spend around 200plus for the whole thing ...(too rich)

was quite enjoy playing among us ..
and was real fun that , we can just relax and throw the day back just wanted to enjoy ..LOL
after that when to eat a BBQ at paris .bill was 80plus ...LOL
then , when home ..reach home around 9pm , and auntymabel was at my home seeing those food and hungrily seeing without eating ..because i was not back yet home ..LOL
ok ..then played dota till now , was chating with auntymabel and CUNZHI just now .
was long time snice last saw her ..meet up soon yea.

ok , just sharing to those who care ..
did't post past few days because , i had blank white in my minds ..
and was kind of lazy .
ok , past few day , i keep when to gym and church things .
was quite enjoy , the most memroble things is .
the church keep fit club came and join me run at tueday ...
was really happy .woots ..
hahax ..
ok , nothing more to share ..was staying home for quite some days .

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ok , woke up with whole body mass cramp .
the first thing i try to sit up from bed .
my whole stomach started to cramp ..
woot , feeling so nice and useless ..LOL
ok , so , no matter what .i must tried to overcome my body .
so , finally i wake up for school ..
pack and stuff and go for class .
meet up willis at interchange and bus thee together .
when to eat with him .
had a open book test today .
and i am sure i can pass .cause its open book .
chat and stuff and when home ...
God bless me .

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Ok , yesterday was quite good ..
finally got to shake hands and say sorry ..
i wanted to have peace and happy go lucky didn't we ?
i shared to shijie , and he supported me .
thanks god , he never use his love to support me .
but i feel god love .
because he shared .i will accompany you brother ,
and lets see how its work .
and i will be the peace maker ..
listening to everyone feeling ..
but , if still cannot peace , then i don't think forcing to stay is good for you ..
But !!!i think we got the peace after so long ..
its hurt , its disappointed , its alone , its sad but , God is with us ..
and i think its really time for me to change before expecting guys around me to change ..
just happy go lucky ..:)
ok , was suppose to meet shijie after nafa test today , cause ven grandmother pass away .
thanks God , its christian . :D

ok , share some on school nafa ..
6 station .
sit up
standing board jump
sit and reach
pull up
shutter run
2.4km

for gold , i need need to get at least grade c and must be total more then 21 point .
thanks God , my sit up i got a and its 5 points , standing board jump got b and its 4 points , sit and reach got a and its 5 points , pull up get c and its 3 points , shutter run got a and its 5points and 2.4km get b i think and its 4 points ..

total i got 26 points i guess and its gold ...AMEN!!
thanks you for praying for me .
thanks for the morning encouragement .
thanks God for begin there for me ..!!!
prayer to God is real strong then people without prayer .:D
but i think i wanna retake .
i want 30points full marks .:)

woot , so happy ..nafa test burn up my day ..
was so tired now ..

ok , just to say , i love you not because you love me ..and ya , i am in the wrong .big wrong .and i am sorry too ..but other things .i shall let God handle ..God will guilde and prove everyone of us .:D and For the info , those tags , i was not trying argue of what , but is also making us understand .and i am not holy person too .but , i just have the feeling to type out ..and i never ever think of trying to fight back . altough some time its hurts me .but , i must still be strong .

its ok what you do , no matter what i still love you .


And ,

BLOG CLOSING IN 1 DAYS !
gonna stop for awhile .
when i settle down , i will open up again .

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hope it peace and treasure ..
hope everything is fine .
i am tired , i don't want to think anymore .
sorry for begin selfish .
lets let prince of peace lead the way .
i will be lest sensitive i promise .
and i don't want to think too much for everything .
Jesus lead my life .he will i am sure .
bye .
takecare .

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when school , half way go home . too tired .
friend was sick , was send back .
i also want , i want swine flu .
meet don't know how to spell the name ..
was thinking of playing boxing with him ..
end up , we did nothing .
was asking by them to eat steam boat at his house .
but i declined .cause i want go gym .
when home and use computer for awhile .
___ talk to me in msn , topic is , the youth .
was sad and hurts listening what she said .
when offline .and when out to walk .
she called me , i don't dare to pick .
because i don't want fight anymore !!!!
saw the message , 3 chances .
so , without any thinking .i need to pick .
so pick , and was more hurts .i had to hold on ..really hold on .
had a bad ending i guess .
and kup ..
and , father call nagging at me saying i when out without closing things .
was right . i deserve it .
eyes red red when home ,
post blog , millions of word i wanted to say , but it just the moment i wanted to say , my mind blank .what happen to me ..
heard mother was talking about me i guess for the last time i fight with her .
till now , think we haven talk ..
corrupted life i had .
then eat .
thinking bout closing my blog because ."looks , what you have done a mess on your tag ."
so , decided .
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I am very sorry guys .
i promise , i will mute myself .don't worry alright .:)
think all i had to say is , bye ..
thanks for letting me know something true .
thanks god for all this .
thanks for destroying me to her ..
since i am arguing back ..
let it be .

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why everytime we will fight about other people ?
can you at least think for me ? if i am not worth , can you at least treat me as idiot retard then hating me for this ??!!! i don't understand why only you will call me to talk about others but not me and you , maybe you are right ..we don't have any things to talk for anymore ..but i really wanna talk to you even i am mute !!! i can't imaging is you the one that ask all go ..its hurt me know ?? am i really so un-worth in your life ? are everything gone ?why you always had to think i had change and think i am wrong and i have problems .. izzit everything is just because my wrong ?? every world is right , and i am always wrong .. am i really not that worth in your heart ?? am i that hopless in your heart right now ? iziit only when you pissed then you will call me ? if its , i will make you piss .. maybe you wish to forget everything , but those thing stay in my heart forever ..what did i done wrong to make you treat me like that ??you think i don't want to be happy ?but how to ?not only others had a problem in heart ..i don't have ?? people do things for their reason , i don't have ?? i like to train home myself , smoke and sensative .. izzit ?i asked you to teach me what to do and i willing to do you said , no point .. i wanted you badly and you told me this and that .. justed wanted to keep shut before things go wrong also wrong ? just wanted you understand me me at least also can't ?as you said .yes , i was keep fighting with them , but at least we know more about each other and love each other more ..but why the more we fight , the more we don't understand each other ?and the more you hate me ?!!! .
but , i still had to say thanks for those time you let me feel like world most happy ever .
sorry for making you feel so hopless and un-worth .
ok for , i will do something on this ..and i will try not to be so bad in your life ..
LISTEN , I DOTHISFORYOU BECAUSEILOVEYOU!


Blog closing on 3days time .

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Only God know me best then anyone do ..
because , i don't even know what i am feeling now ..
feeling abit of sad plus bit of happy plus bit of disappointed plus bit of hope plus bit of hopeless plus bit of angry plus big of hurts plus bit of funny plus bit of tired plus bit of high plus bit of joy plus bit of fear plus bit of peace ..
O.0 ..add up equal what i guess ..
want to say , i am totally sad .
i still won't , because i found found the meaning of living for you .
want to say i am happy .
i still won't , because things goes very messed up .
want to say i am disappointed ,
i still won't , because i found hope when i dreaming .
want to say i am hope .
i still won't because it seem like no hope .
want to say hopeless ,
i still won't , because i memorois cure me .
want to say angry .
i still won't , because had to worth angry .
want to say hurts ,
i still won't , because friends heal me .
want to say funny ,
i still won't because i am truthfully serious .
want to say tired ,
i still won't because i want to fight hard for this .
want to say high,
i still won't because i keep on facing problem.
want to say joy ,
i still won't because always fight .
want to say fear ,
i still won't because i love you .
want to say peace ,
i still won't because i can't found everytime .


i don't need anyone to waited , but at least you i will be happy .
you hurts me , and the more you hurt me .
the move i love you ...
sorry for offline , and more sorry for never pick up , because i promise you i will pick your every call i guess ...
Remember , i am strong because of you ..and you are the only reason .!!
never be replace !

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Cut it short ,

wake up at 7.45 am ..
prepare and stuff .go church .
prepare to lead .pray and stuff ..
thanks God worship is good .
sharing time ...i reached home at 10.45 pm ytd cause was leading with the worship team n pastor ngan church ..
and was prayer , God i was doing your job , and please don't let me get caught ..
and right after i when home 5min .the officer came and check ..
thanks God , was ever the officer so late still come check ..14months of pobation .and it was the first time he came so late ..was thinking to ask the officer why he came so late so slove and see how God works ...but i don't dare to ask ..and thanks God for answering prayer .

and after church , when to caleb house for prayer ..
but i fall asleep cause too bored ..sorry for sleeping ..
then wake up , some stupid idiot guy call me finding trob with me .
so was waiting him to jio me out one to one ..LOL
but , don't understand why he never ...
if he did ...i would be happy ..because i can destress punching ..
ya , abit selfish , sorry God ..catch me if i done anything wrong .
i am willing for your punish ...:)
so after that , when down to settle and do some action .
and , things goes fine then what i think ..:)
was around to meet them for cycling ..
so when down and cab there to meet them ..
and cycle ..
then when home ...

when i was at mrt ,
was thinking about somethings ..
but , think ___ wont either care for me already ?
but , don't know why , still thinking ..
Omg , whenever i saw ___ , the feeling is so strong that i need to do something bout it before i regret for my life .
and thats why i keep avoiding ___ .
think i am really not a man ..LOL !!
Omg , please ...i need the power .i need it eagerly ..
God give me please ..listen my prayer please .!!!
God , can you please exchange my life for ___ ?
i promise you anything for this prayer please ...!!!!
haiiiiiiissss...

ok ...done , post finish .

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Huiwen : ok , i did say , i stand there for 25 mins , and did walk around finding for around 25mins too ok ..ya , but why right after i when down ...everyone gone ??i just go up and get something and i did't even spend my time smoking or whatever there k .i don't need any asking forgivness .no one is wrong i guess , and i am used to it ..i voice it out how many and did anyone notice ?no , not even you ..and you all its not the matter of young and old .and please think back who started thiis areoplane game ?? what you all feel is just what i feel on that moment .and please , snice when you saw i do my cig stuff alone ??LOL , please don't think too far yet i never .and please check my last tag , i did't say and change but just add on ??i am sure at least i learn something call not to speck throns to others .:) , and why not ?and you all was busy talking on own things and what you expect me ?go act as i know everything and join in ?? please lahhhs ..think what you all do first please ..


x|aO`en : ok , for your info .. for me , that day is just a fellowship day hoping everything will turn good .. i never calculating ...but its just a go up and go down ..and i am sure i even REPORT i going up to buy thing ...its ok ...i had forget already , and nevermind ..next time will happen to you in your life for sure once ..but i am not sure who going did it .. but i am sure , in your life time , you will got it once by don't know who , lets wait and see alright ? then what am i going to do ?? tie a string together next time and walk together ? and i won't left without unslove ? please lahhhs . the feeling is like so been bastard , and you guys is the ever first do it in my life ..and maybe , maybe what i think is too bad too , because i had never meet and go out with like that before , because even all go last time , there will at least 1-2 people waiting there to guilde way ..but not all go .you get it ?and , i did't stuck ..i still learn on church ..but only thing is why i am so disappointed and sensative to you all ... i also want to change ..but don't know why it always stop me .and i guess jesus is also human .for what i know ..before jesus came , human keep saying ...we can't do this and do that , because you are God and we are human ..but , when God send his child ..it prove us that , human also can do it .?ya , you did not see someone like jesus , but you did know jesus ? ya , God grace is always enought , but just a reminder ..The biggest grace on God to us is knowing him ..If God grace is to cover every thing for you ..what fore for repent ?and i found , you had abit wrong mindset , thinking we are human and jesus is God , but for your info , Jesus is also human forms ..and he did it ...am i right ?so you can did it .and most important things is , jesus is God son ..and we are too ..because God had choosen us ..so please , don't keep thinking , we are human and God is God , if its it ..what for bible teach us to be godlly like person ?and for what i learn , God grace is enought , and he love you thats why he punish you ..so , we can't also take avantage of God grace i means ..and there is a topic that is "CHEN MI ZAI EN DIAN TANG ZHONG" had time i will share with you ..and please , i never fault anyone ever ..guess if i fault i still will talking to you all ?if i thing of God is like that , i still will come church ? i won't keep it , because i really think its waste of time thinking of all those things that even childish then 0years old ..and just a feedback , if you all ever wanted to build up strong , please stay strong for own and unit as one before you all start to go out to save people ...because if outsider saw it , it will laught that , we can't even stay strong and keep saying wanna save people ..simple , build everyone up once again in order to impact people ..and , love is not only words ..ya , i admit , i ownself is hard to find back the love to you all ..because all things is crush in just a second .. i once learn a things on love ..will teach you if got chances ..but for your info , read and notice more on the part of jesus was sended down to the world , and what he do to make a millions of people feel loved and trust him till now , and think . why it impacts so many genations down till us ?.. and i am sure miricles like heallings etc are not really works that millions of people belives on jesus , becase demons also can perfrom miricles .and even those tang kee outside .:) .

Caleb : bro , i really never ever once got this problem before i swear in my life and to God .. And the most disappointed is , i can't imaging the first group is this ..and i was thinking , we chirstian get to know God , we should be more strong then many people outside , but i can't imaging all this happens in me through you all wor .. really .ya , on my past , i don't know God , my friend don't know God , but you know ? at least we know the simple laws of going out together as team ..and bro , the most thing make me disappointed is why all this happen on me through this group but not others Group that don't know God you understand ? Its really pain when seeing everything happen you know ??yups , i know i go back is my problem , but what can i do ?? never ever once got all those problem , and i really don't know how to settle ..as i saw so much confilts and things going on .. i wonder , why there is so many problem when we all know the truth .and why , i face so many problems with you all when we all know the truth ?but , why , i did not had problems with my past friends and brother when we don't know God ?? i really think we all need stay strong before helping ..ya , you can tell me you all love each other and very strong ..but , not everyone eyes know when we start to reach out to others .. just like i am wearing lousy colths and pants telling you my mum is a millions air ...will you belive ? just like i am very smelly telling you i just bath come out , will you belive and just like i tell you i love you , and on your behind i ask my friend to beat you up and you know , will you stil belive i love you ??i admit , it really make me think alot ..if really things still can't click on well , i think i had to walk one step see one step .
thanks for reading my long post .
huiwen , xiaoen and caleb .

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Ok , for the info .. me and my father can start to talk things out again ..
and he started to treat me better i guess ...
was quite happy that night mare is over ..
ok , lets talk abit on friday ..friday suppose to be a good day that there is not school ..
and was thinking , why there is no call from church mate for event on Thursday night ??
so , was asking around and wanna try host one for myself ...
and some told me call them tomorrow and see where i want to go ..
so was decide to meet my friends ..
but , in the morning , i receive 4 message from friends ..3 of them is from church .
and one of course is from shi jie my girl friend ...LOL .
suddenly they plan to go youth outing in the last min ..
so i wake up and make a call to them asking where are them , because in the message ,
they write , meet on 1.30pm ..but i wake up on 1.40pm ..LOL
it was too sudden , and i don't know how to settle .
so i decide i reject meeting friend and going meet them ..
was packing my stuff fast , so that i might join them fast ..
and when i finish , i call xiaoen .. telling and asking them ,
i had done , where are you all ..they told me they are in bus to vivo city ..
sian1/2 , i thought we will go together ..
so , i suddenly saw shijie message again ..
telling me he is just down stair eating ...and i start to think , what if they eat there ?
so , i called him and meet him eat together ...:)
and i suddenly notice .i forget to eat my medi ..!!!
Omg , i was to gan chiong to go out just now uh ?!!!
lols !!!!so faster when home and eat before going out ...
so , bye to shijie ..

train all the way to vivo city myself ...was quite a long journey there , its about 50mins to 1hour.
but i just don't know why i enjoy myself in the train ..LOL
so , when i reach ..i message xiaoen and she call me trying to meet me ...
so , meeted them ..

blah blah blah ...
bad things happen ....
1st : its was totally not like youth outing ..
2nd: i learn nothing from God that day ..
3rd: everyone split here and there ..
4th: everything was so last min ..
5th: areoplaned .

roughtly , i told that i go up buy something , then i ask for wait , then i when up , 5 min later , i when down , then everyone missing , i when all the way down and up to find them , but not everywhere , because i don't really know the way of vivo , because i once lost inside vivo alone , and i can't find the way out , and i waited at the same spot for 25min , and notice no one there , and i pissed , strong feeling of kana bastard , and when home myself asking and finding way , when for dinner at woodlands alone , go prayer meeting , they ask me where are those youth , i don't know how to answer , because we should go together back together , and do things as one together , but things just goes different ..there is one word in chinese " wo men yi qi chu men , yi qi hui ,yi qi chu men , qi qi chou, yi qi ta jia , yi qi si , yi qi jing jiu yao yi qi chu ." but think , they are born in english edu ..so , maybe they don't know the law of going out ... was so proud because i am chinese .

so , was strong feeling of kana areoplaned .so when prayer meeting myself ...
sorry friends that i reject you all and never call you all that when i say i will host one outing ..
ok , lets stop about sad things ...

today today !!!
woke up , by right was needed to meet jabez at 1.30pm ...but i woke up at 1.25pm ..
so , faster go bath and stuff then when to jabez house for song choosing and pratice ..
was asking where is caleb ..and jabez say , he when out ...
Omg , tomorrow is church for youth leading .
and we had not choose any song .
and as a so call youth leader ..you never come for song practice yet go out ?
funny uh ?
was quite disappointed ..
just seem like nobody bisness .?
so , nevermind , choose songs with jabez ..
and then we head to ang mo kio together ..
then when to pastor ngan church for song leading ...
was quite good for song leading ...:)
and pastor don preach on spirit soul and body ..!!

there is a part impact me alot ..:)
we guys need to change for better ...
do things for better ..
be good and true before God ...
don't tell me that all you need is only to have the heart for him ..
then , he share a story ..
he once was called to preach on his church in 600plus people ...
but , that time ...he don't have good english , and he don't know how to speak english well ..
and he when , and when he started to share on a boy and girl story of in a house . ..
he make everyone blur , because of his poor english .and end up , no people know that , who is really inside the house and outside the house , because he mix up on he , she , him , her ...
and end up , everyone was blur and confuse .and he told us , he got the heart for God also ma ..but end up ??

this story teach us on , we not only need to just have the heart .but need to change better for jesus ..so that people will see the glory of God ..and you may able to lead people to chirst ..but not only had a heart for God ..It is not enought ..have desire for God everytime , and you will learn and grow ..Cool man , the message ..:D

so , when home , was late ..reach home around 10.40 pm .
and miricle happen on me ...will share on tommorow ..:)
ok , its late .
so , takecare ..

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