Monday, June 8, 2009
6:19 PM
still will read my blog lehhhs, not bad...
all those tears and struggle is for the past your..
that one that is lovely and good...
all those promise is meant for the past you...
the one that keep the promise well...
all those love is for the past you..
the one that treated me as someone in life and the one that is herself...
all those good me is for the past you..
the one that had been a good girl..
all those stupid me is for the past you..
the one that make my life colorful.
please understand, you change first and i change 2nd.
if i had never respect you, your life would not been at least so good..
and since when i never respect?
never mind, God knows and i know..
maybe i think, do somethings don't need everyone to know..
if what we do, we need everyone to know, there is no meaning in it...
but just wanted to say, all those promise will go to the day that the past of you..
but, not the now you...
okok, let talk bout today ...
yesterday sleep at 2.30am , was chatting with nu-er telling her my heart outs...
thanks God for hearing me,
thanks God that she told me one thing, "don't do stupid things, i don't want you end up inside"
i think so...
ya, i really want a peaceful life for now...
what should come, will come one day..
can't dought..
so, lets walk and see how it can be settled.
ok, wanted to said,"i see you no up" ...LOL(sorry for this English)
ok, and wake up by my father at 6.20am in the morning ,
ready and stuff,
when jogging with him early in the morning...
was fun..but he was slow...Opsss...LOL
then do some excise..
and when home bath, and meet my mother at khatib mac at 8am with my father..
when we at mac, was really fun and joke..
laughed through the whole breakfast.
cause i asked my father, what you want to eat, and he say anything..
so i order for him a small burger and me and my mum with a big burger plus egg..
then i told him same same...
then when come, my father blur blur,
said, which one is mine...
i point the small one to him..
and he take the big burger say, waaaaa...want to bully me ar..
i pay 10dallor eat the special want ar(special small) ..
i don't care...i going eat the big one, and go home i cook a egg give you back...
LoL, hard say all...but it was really funny..
whole family there laughing like mad a mac...
love my family man!
Muacks!
after that when to fairprice with my parents to shop for tonight cell group..
then brought many things...but i carry all..
my father carry a super small thing acting very heavy..LOL
cannot tahan him..
and when home together..:D
great start of the day...
and here goes i am sleepy...
sorry dad i can't accompany you to pen-tech.
ya, cause after my running, i almost fainted..
the feeling really scary..
whole body no strength, then feel like wanted to sleep like that..
when very giddy..
and even lao-sai ...
first time ever this feeling...
i think for now, i am too weak to go pen-tech with my dad..
so, slack at home play computer and sleep..:D
k,
takecare and godbless
love you.
Muacks,
Muahahahahas.
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Dont know me .
3:33 AM
Maybe i found many people don't know me well ..
the promise is given to the pass you ..
not the person that now ..
you can screw me and try ..
its not the matter i scare you its the matter how much i respect you .
And think of yourself what you say too ..:)
talk no use .
as action speak louder then words .
maybe your screwing to those who love you will affect them.
to those who not ...nothing is include..
you who wanted the things end like this..
so do i respect it !!
its there any big deal that not together with me?
or its there any big deal that i will die if you are not?
don't think so, cause i will give no respect to those who want to change their life to such a stages..
ya, maybe the pass...
relationship with you to me is important, cause its the pass you..
but now, its no longer..because i can't believe the choice you choose..:D
Never regret doing such things..what i need to do, i had done...
what i need to said, i had said..
a pails of tears i also had cry through...
Happiness i also had gone thought...
loving with all my hearts i also had done through..
accompanying you through your hard time i also gone through..
now is maybe the time you will stayed happy for now.
what can i regret for?
Now,i remember a time that my grandmother died..
my father was telling me, Son, don't be sad if you had done your best..
because we had not own any regret...
we had done our best in those time she is alive...
and now, she is dead, sadness is for those who had guilty in the heart that never take good care of her when she is alive..
so, what can i regret for?
yet i had did my best...
thanks God.
okkies , talk about today, woots!!
i had slept for 16 hours today..!!
sleep at 2am yesterday and wake up at 6pm next day..
lols...sleeping beauty uh...LOL
and wake up brush teeth and bath and talking to dad.
and now, was playing computer times...:D
in this problems, i learned...somethings..
something that make me abit disappointed in someone..
but, its ok..nobody owns me..
muahahahas ..
takecares and God bless..
should see you in arena soon once i am release..
and i shall slays you till death.
Labels: love kill me.
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To reader that love .
Sunday, June 7, 2009
3:51 AM
ok, share past few day MIA go where .try to recall as much as i can ..i got go orchard with weikang , shijie , venessa , weixiang , weiyan , junjia , priscilla , zhen hao , jianwen , me and cunzhi ....when to k-box then lucky plaza play pool then shop around and go home ..and it was a brother outing cause weikang going to ns on dont know when june ..was quite enjoy ..and did when to woodlands play basketball with jianwen feel time ..he was sharing telling me .this few days keep having fights with his wife ..was quite sad for him ..and stay at home .ok , ytd have a great time for song training .then night go paya lebar there for some worship leading .was really happy ..cause God is there !!! but after that , saw someone emo ..was thinking ask why ..and i learn something this feel day ..when we happy at all times ...we can might able to infuance others to happy ..if we emo at all times ...we can might able to infuance other to emo ..so , i rather stay happy seeing everyone happy ...:)Ok , wanted to be good ...but things keep coming ..unstoppable UH .share something about today .at first , was good ...but end up , was bad ..hearing some bad things ..and, think time is nearer ...:Dok , wanted to tell you, since you choose this way .hope you will not regret..since you like to treat me like this.lets treat each other same...since you give me trob , i will give you too..since you keep pulling down my spiritual life, when i down .i will bring you down i promise...if you don't like me to treat you good, i shall treat you what you wanted..let the water flow on the river , and let the river water hit the stone by it own..you are evil to me, i gave up everything, you depart me..but, i had a mindset, if you know you will know,i am not scare about no people or friends, but i scare i had too much friends...rebuild a moutian is what i am tenlented in..if i got a chance to choose , i will choose to get to know you earlyer then everyone..but too bad, i got nothing to choose.but thank God, now at least i still can get to choose to leave and forget this person.and i am sure, i can't do it by hating you all i want..i love you because you are a girl that had a same case as me,you are a girl that are quite sad to say bout,you are a girl that quite naive,you are a girl that cute, you are a girl that was very guai and had a great hope to me..and most important is you are you...but now, you change,change to a girl that had no courage,a girl that comdemming herselve,a girl that making her own life downwards, a girl that had no God,a girl that lying herselve,a girl that selfish,a girl that keep going night life, a girl that like to avoid me .High eh , God, i need a girl that hold me up and change my life..help me take away my huge rock that making me fall again and again...please please .for now, i only want peace, and i know beating someone had no gain for my life and just causing me more problems...so i decided, had you equal no me, had me equal no you..because when i saw you, my life turns down deeply to evil..so, if you english..i chinese...btw, i really need thank God that i can don't need to see your face and don't need to make me lost anymore..and my dear, please don't create problem in my life if its like that,i don't want make your life hard..and most important, i had decided to follow jesus!!!!Muahahahas!!!!i wanted to be a person with jesus light and salt,a person that had a great exmaple and had a great chirst like family and a person that had did a great job in the social and God kimdom..Labels: person that with my enermy equal love no more...
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Monday, June 1, 2009
10:52 AM
okok , was excite receiving some good news in the morning around 6am ..and tml is the time ..ya , ok .i know you will hate me all you can ..but just hope you understand ..why always i will fall in love with a person that will with others that i don't like much uh .?
tell me why why why why why ?stupid bryan , ben bryan , idiot bryan , cute bryan ..(opss)
last time also , now also .later also ? next time also ? when also ?forever also ? :D
Jesus heals my hurts .
muacks.
ok , share abit...was woke up by a phone call at 5am morning ...when now to yishun 603 ..after that , buy breakfast and when home .was quite bored this few day .but i enjoy .was only excited things going happen ..LOL!!!!ok , when gym today for some training .was a few day since i last go ..this time i go with my father , but he did't do anything there ..only sitting there ..LOLok , was kind of excited .sorry for my posting .hard to read yea ?LOLplease don't go ! i love you !!but you will still go ...God bless me ..:)thank god btw ..God please control me this few day ..i really wanted to follow you only .please !Labels: Jesus heals my hurt
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