First and Last post for you.
Friday, November 5, 2010
2:24 PM
Ok
Today was her birthday.
Done all I can for her.:) (who knows?)
Agree, Some people may be saying I'm stupid now.
But did You ever know the love for You?
Just notice why I'm always stack in this problem.
Because I keep on thinking that i had not done enough.
Till today. I'm very clear what I had done to you.
I did't own you anything, Did't ever.
In my mind. You're always that good.
Till today, I notice.
Actually I'm not that important to you even as a friend.
What i did, I always think for you. What about you?!! Treating me as a shit?!
Seriously.
Don't because just a fucking guy ever hurt You means You can judge the whole entire guy that will do the same thing to You.
If this is your thinking.
I'm damn pity for you.
Because you really don't know what is love till now.
The feeling towards you is utterly disappointed.
Maybe what You done to me can help you in Your distress.
But do you think it's fair?!
Fling around izzit that cool for You?
Did't You have the sense of guilt?
Can't imagine You can tell me I love you when Your heart is still thinking others.
Do I look like the person?!
Seriously, After so many things happen.
Your vision in my eyes is getting more and more blur.
Till now, I really admit.
I did't know You well before.
Maybe to You. Relationship is just ever a joke for You.
You're seeking more hurts then love.
You make me feel that you are never ever been love before.
And yet, I'm trying all i can to fill your empty heart.
But you?! You're just using me as a healing fountain to get into better part of Your life.
Maybe all the while I was too naive that you'll return one day.
All the while before i do any decision i will think izzit best for you in your life.
But what about you? You keep hang me in the middle of the sky.
Just like a kite without the string did you notice?
And yea.
Everything is my wrong.
1st.I'm in the wrong to fought with someone you like.
2nd.I'm in the wrong to get some food and send over to your place.
3rd.I'm in the wrong for caring you that much.
4th.I'm in the wrong for worrying you.
5th.I'm in the wrong for messaging you.
6th.I'm in the wrong for knowing your good sister.
7th.I'm in the wrong for missing you.
8th.I'm in the wrong for doing something for you.
9th.I'm in the wrong for irritating you.
10th.I'm in the wrong for paranoid over you.
11th.I'm in the wrong for wanting to meet you.
12th.I'm in the wrong for pressuring you.
13th.I'm in the wrong for sweet talking to you.
14th.I'm in the wrong for wanting to meet you.
15th.I'm in the wrong for meeting you.
16th.I'm in the wrong for saying you.
17th.I'm in the wrong for commenting in your facebook.
18th.I'm in the wrong for saying your friends.
19th.I'm in the wrong for sharing my feelings with you.
20th.I'm in the wrong for concerning you.
21st.I'm in the wrong for defensing for you.
Did You ever think why I'll do all those thing?!
If all this thing make You so unhappy in your life, What for i stay?
Seriously, I found no value in you're life now.:)
I buy something to surprise someone hoping that she may have a blessed meal without walking to buy.
What i got?
A call from another guy.
Asking me what the fuck i want now?
I asked him. Do you have any problem?
Then she say I finding her friend fault.:) (Y)
At the point seriously I really don't understand what is love anymore.:)
Teach me. how to reply her friend?!
Saying, No eh brother. I'm very sad ma. Trying to win her heart. Worry she hungry?
Cannot be? He's someone i don't even know?!
First place.
Where He got my number.?
Sad enough to guess the answer?
Peeps that know me well enough know I won't get into problems for no reason.
That time I was just thinking. Right here I'm trying to be a Good person.
Yet there are always this kind of test.
God.
Seriously, You know I'll always fail this test. Don't test me with this will you?!
OK, never mind.
After everyone had scold me that I'm stupid enough.
I even scold them.
Maybe this is when everyone saying me stubborn enough.
I did't care. Just want to love you.
But afterall what did i get?!!
scolding from peeps.
I messaging you. trying to make you happy.
And my outcome is irritating?!!
I even said sorry to make things clear.
But all i got is what?!
I try all ways trying to know how are you doing.
End up?!!
you're thinking I'm honging your good friend?!
Izzit fair to your friend and me seriously?!
And you kick me like a soccer ball to your friend?
I'm upset. And showing everyone attitude. Who care?
Who the love that got hurt?
My family. Those who love me.?!!
what is those craps I'm doing? For who?
Me myself?!
A very Sorry to those who are trying to pull me up in my life.:)
Disappointed in me that time right?:P
When I'm most down.
Who're there??!!
What are you doing?
What are you thinking?
I'm knocking at your heart asking you for a return.
What you told me?
what you told others?:)
What's your aspect of love?
Izzit this way?!
I've been trying hard to maintain a friendship for you and me.
But what are you treating me as?
Pieces of shit?
Even try ask everyone how to hold this friendship back.
Even research on google's.
People that seeing this post may be laughing at me saying I'm stupid or whatever fuck.
Or seeing it lame.
Please fuck off from my life if You guys want to take this post as a joke._|_
Till today.
I used all my saving to get something for you unconditionally.
What are you thinking again?
Flings?!:)
I'm awake from this now. If all i did make you treat me this way.
Serve me right then.
If all i ever did for you is just to get all this back from you then a friend.
Then I'll tell you.
I'm in the wrong for loving you.
I'm in the wrong for knowing you.
I'm in the wrong for doing all this for you.
Bryan's Lim
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